The chains koans’ resistance to fatigue is superlative. It’s beyond anything I’ve tested. I haven’t hit invulnerability yet, but I’m making steady progress towards the ocean floor.
I decided to go ahead and make my armor active instead of passive, burning out any sources of downtime procrastination by deleting them, setting up barriers, etc. This would’ve been a useless gesture while the urge was still overwhelming, since I’d just bypass the barriers during a sufficiently long downtime. But now only a fully developed downtime procrastination trance is a real obstacle, so the barriers are effective. The goal is to either do something at the top of the Cyborganize queue or meditate with eyes closed, and that includes in-transit reading selection.
I also figured out that the rice content of my meals had crept up too high. I’d theorized that since rice is my only guaranteed digestive inert nutrient, little harm could come of it. But when it dilutes the meat sufficiently, the result is still overeating to get at craved protein and micronutrients. Cutting rice intake by half greatly relieved overeating pressure, taking pressure off the whole regimen and improving energy.
I also decided to add “Follow me” as a secondary stage to my “I have chains” koan trigger. The full text is “Take up your chains and follow me”, a paraphrase of Jesus. The motivational value for an MT Christian should be obvious. Adding the bit of text doesn’t cost much because it’s just an occasional trigger, not part of the actual meditation.
Lastly, hat tip to Illuminatus for finding Lana Del Ray, a genuine deepsocket female, one I’m willing to bet is MT. Her music videos hit my soul with an intensity no female singer has matched. It’s encouraging to find an example of home for our bastard race.
Holy shit, check out her bio:
“studying a branch of philosophy known as metaphysics[11][18][19] because “it bridged the gap between God and science. I was interested in God and how technology could bring us closer to finding out where we came from and why.”[20] She said, “that was when my musical experience began. I kind of found people for myself.””
High linguistic facility and binary-truth obsession with ultimate why: check
Artistic savagery, honesty, melancholy glory and style, darkness and light: check.
Seriously intelligent lyrical content: check.
I’m starting to realize what I want.
EDIT:
Confirming her MT status, a song named Ultraviolence:
And here she is on walkabout. Sucks for chicks. Talk about lost, tarnished, remnants of glory.
We’re bastard children, half in one world, half in the other, belonging to none. Even nature won’t have us. There’s not one world where we belong. But we might just be the antidote to the curious, temporary poison afflicting this one. Certainly quicker acting than Tex’s long term Holocene health plan seems to promise. I hope, when it’s done, we die.