The previous post on Samson is yet another totally decontextualized bizarre statement from yours truly. As we’ve established, I prefer them that way; they seem to have more integrity.
So, to put it in context.
Combine a Churchian upbringing with a deepsocket integrity drive, and you get a man constitutionally incapable of hoisting the black flag. Sure, the special case of holy war is possible, but otherwise responses are limited to a range between gamma and high beta, depending on environment. In a hostile environment, gamma predominates. A man who cannot hoist the black flag may be trampled, and will.
I contemplated Jim’s harbingers of civilization, the pirate-capitalists. I found I lacked their spirit. A man must be able to embrace chaos and destruction for their own sake; he must be able to toast marshmellows on the world’s pyre.
Yet where is the Christian model for this? It is all Apollonian stained glass.
Finally the example of Samson struck me – truly a man of disaffection, chaos, and magnificent grudge. A hero of destruction small and great, without an iota of redemptive rebuilding.
It’s not meant to be the whole of the personality, only a facet – the threat behind the line drawn in the sand. A threat capable of graduated response, an animalistic growl unsullied by civilization.
Even as I departed from Churchianity, my training focused on building the Kingdom. But in Samson’s time, no such building was possible. As his time, so ours. How then, to act? When one is a born loser, a Yakuza, one can lose any way one pleases.
Everyone seems to conceptualize Yahweh as the God of brilliant light. But Satan, not Yahweh, is the morning star. Yahweh existed before light. I think the heart of Yahweh is smoke – if you can make sense of that. This makes Him more to be feared.
Anyhow, the main purpose of this facet is to halt the deepsocket self-flagellating integrity check / interrupt that occurs when I measure my actions against the goal of building the Kingdom. Under the right conditions, chaos and petty destruction are worthy ends. Entropy and devolution are not proofs of failure. Thus the interrupt halts, and I return to peace.
In other words, a permanent state of anger is not a healthy state, and the Samson post doesn’t recommend it. Paradoxically, the example of Samson is part of my path to continual peace and joy.
And unsurprisingly, when others detect the chaotic threat, they tend to show more respect for one’s personal boundaries. But again, it’s not about being butthurt; it’s just about being able to accept and integrate Dionysian acts and outcomes.
In other news, with the completion of the popular version of the proof, I need to select my next project. Philosophy needs traffic, but I think I can more efficiently generate traffic with my other projects, Cyborganize and Edenism. But first, I need to setup a working contact management / keep in touch system. Cyborganize’s executive and journaling functions are outstanding, but people management is nonexistent, a critical gap. With luck I’ll get it done this weekend; without luck two weeks. I’ve got a painful bio-test running, so productivity predictions are dicey. But at least thanks to journaling, my predictions are now grounded in reality. The value from my new 3GW journaling system is truly exciting; I can hardly wait to share it. I have absolutely no doubt that it is the most important part of Cyborganize. “Know thyself” is finally possible.